The rough with the smooth

Well, thats been tough. I promised myself when I started this blog that I would be honest, and the past week has certainly been tough, more mentally than physically I think. The chemo followed basically the same pattern as before, except the last few days have really dragged, unlike the days before which are just a blur. Yesterday was my first day out of bed and I felt good all morning, however after lunch I felt really tired so, as promised, I listened to my body and went back to bed. Next thing its evening time and I cant face getting up as just so tired still, so I stayed in bed, and sleep, open eyes and its just before 6 this morning. Where did that go. I find it incredibly frustrating being so tired, after leading an increadibly active life, that I have the occaisional down moment. I have to draw on my reserves of PMA to tell myself that this is actually part of the process I must go through to help me through this, and that this down blip is only temporary. This mornng I feel better than yesterday and have started making some plans for the next week or so, little hobbies that I can pick up again simply, which will help me focus. The positive side is I have 2 weeks now before the next treatment, so thats 2 weeks of getting better when the roller coaster will start again.

Anyway, the good news over the last week, is once again, more old friends have been in touch, some I haven't spoken to in many years, and I find that very comforting. I hope once the chemo is finished, to catch up personally with everyone, as that would be so good. Sarah has again been working so hard looking after me, and the kids, she really is a star. I also spoke to my oncologist yesterday regarding my blood test results, and he is pleased with them, they are in line with his best expectations, so that's good news too. He is sorting a new scan before my next round of chemo, so we can see how the tumours are reacting, fingers, legs, eyes all crossed for that result then.

Time for brekki, boiled eggs today I think, then more time on the sofa as I need to be careful. Maybe I will take the dog for a short walk later, as I need to keep active.